New start….

Act IV

So, I have been working three jobs in the past year and some… Yes, one full time crisis counseling job that is stressful, and mid-year became more stressful as my hours were increased and my pay decreased by no fault of my own. I know from my schooling that when something happens you feel you have no choice over, then you feel increased stress. I know this to be true from experience as well. I worked to re-define this as my choice to stay until something better came along. But what is strange is that I was applying for jobs, interviewing and even though I was more than qualified, in the right position and the best choice for the job… I was overlooked. I was beginning to feel invisible.

Before I began these three jobs, my goal was to work a year in three jobs, then find the one that supported my private practice, if that was working for me. This was the plan.

So, working toward this, I got lost. I started overlooking my own needs. No wonder everyone else was overlooking my needs; I had set a precedent. The above Ted Talk speaks to me. Why? Because I can do all the right things, but if I am not doing what my “Self” calls me to do… The “Self” being the spiritual connection to God, then I am not going to move forward. I am going to be stuck. I have known I have been stuck for some time…It was hard to disappoint my co-workers. It was hard to stop doing the job that gave me some sense of security (even if it was being taken away by degrees).

I am getting the excitement back for my career. I am rekindling the dream of a crisis center… I am finding my bliss…

About cherithh

I am a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I have been working with people suffering from the effects of trauma for the past 9 years and I love to help people overcome their past and build a new life. This blog is a place to log in some of the reflections and tools that come about from my practice and my own life.
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